Nyi Imas

Saya merasa ada yang lucu dan geli ketika OB di kantor menyodorkan tagihan minuman yang saya ambil bulan lalu. Kebetulan sistem bayarnya ngutang dan dibayar setelah gajian. Kebetulan OB-nya kan orang Sunda jadi dia memanggil saya Teteh karena saya orang Serang. Disitu kertas itu tertera tulisan saya yang menuliskan nama Imas dan ternyata ada yang menambahkan kata Nyi di depan nama saya jadinya Nyi Imas hahahahahahaha…  Jadul banget. Kalo saja saya tidak tahu arti dari kata sapaan Nyi dalam kultur Sunda mungkin saya sebel banget kali. Nyai atau Nyi kan kesannya kayak nenek-nenek gitu. Kalo kagak tau sih mungkin cewek masih muda ngamuk dipanggil Nyai hahahahay.

Inget film Kabayan kan? Nah Kang Kabayan kan manggil gadis yang ia sukai dengan sapaan Nyi Iteung. Nyai atau Nyi itu dalam kultur Sunda sama dengan Neng (sapaan kepada gadis muda) perbedaannya adalah kalo Nyai/Nyi ini dipake sama orang-orang tua dulu dan Neng dipake sama orang-orang zaman sekarang. Nyai/Nyi ini khasnya Sunda Priangan. Jadi saya merasa geli sekaligus merasa senang  dan terhormat disapa Nyi walaupun jadul sekalee.

Dulu juga saya merasa ga keren banget kalo disapa Nong kayaknya kerenan Neng deh. Selidik punya selidik ternyata Nyai/Nyi dan Nong ini sama Cuma kalo Nyai/Nyi dipake Sunda Priangan dan Nong dipake Sunda Banten dan juga sama-sama jadulnya hahaha..

Saya kan tinggal di Serang yang mayoritas berbahasa Jawa dan orang-orang Jawa Serang yang termasuk golongan sepuh-sepuh dan orang-orang yang tinggal di kampung masih pake Nong untuk memanggil gadis muda sedangkan kalo di Serang kota udah pada pake Neng. Setelah tahu nilai dan budaya saya jadi lebih suka dengan Nong dan Nyai/Nyi ini walau jadul tapi unik dan menarik yah walaupun sekarang mulai tergeser dan kalah pamor dengan Neng yang dianggap lebih kota dan keren hahahaha..

Learning English is Fun

One day my boarding house friend laughed very loud and I wanted to know so I went to her room to know why and she said that she was having fun watching The Big Bang Theory. Did you know when the first time what I thought about it? I was thinking that it was a science fiction film (that I have gone wrong deduction). So she told me that The Big Bang Theory is a sitcom about a group of nerds. She said it was funny.

Then she told to watch it by myself to take a look how funny it was. I finally got one season of this sitcom on my laptop and tried to watch it carefully. Surprisingly, I did not get into the jokes so I did not laugh. I ended up watching it just because I thought I could practice my English. (here, I wanted to make clear that I like American English accent because I think it sounds nice for non-native speaker like me who is trying to sound like native to imitate. You know I could not imitate the sexy and gorgeous accent of British because it is too unnatural for non-native speaker like me who never been overseas to imitate. I think I would sound tacky if I do that. But yes I like British English very much yet I just could not imitate it)

I was very surprised to see Sheldon who got a little bit alike with Sherlock. He is fast-talking, scientist, very smart, incapable of making social relationship well because he puts too much attention on himself and the one who could bear someone like him is Leonard, his roommate. I was so surprised because I think that kind of relationship is like Sherlock Holmes and John Watson. I like Sheldon because he is like Sherlock Holmes a little bit.

This sitcom is about nerd life and now I was getting into it. I could understand the joke that was pretty much funny and I was having fun with that. I should say that watching this could make me feel enjoy something that I want to learn. I would explain to you, actually I am a student of English program who suppose to master English but I always think that I am not good. So I try my best to always learning but I end up with boring situation. I always know that the best way to learn language is by using it. I am using my senses to catch everything that I could learn from English. By watching movies, cartoons, or this sitcom, I learn much about English. I like language because I think I have so many ways to gain knowledge not just by sitting around in the library and reading many books. (I still think reading book is best way to make you smart haha). Now, I was writing something and what it was about I did not care because the point was I start to write again and that was good for me. 

Something Called Emotion

People have feeling. They feel everything. They react to everything around them. We could show our feeling to others in order to create a situation that we want. Why I say a situation (or may be condition). Why did not I say a relationship? Recently, I have experienced so many feelings but it is not just a feeling but I realize it by my awareness as a human being that my feeling or I would like to call it my emotion would create such a situation and condition with others. This emotion I perceive that everyone notices by themselves when they grown up and learn the slice of life, the sweetness and the bitterness sides of life. It is quite wonderful   since I realize it.

I am so called a bad temper person. Sometimes just a little tiny pieces of problem could ignite the fire in my heart. Just a little mistake and I would cry for nothing actually. And I realize it I cry because I want to cry. On Sunday I had a fight with my younger sister just because she brought the boarding house key with her while she was having fun with others. I could wait actually. I was very very very much mean to her. I mean that she just got me in this place because we are far away from home. And I was so blind to mock her. I really felt bad about myself. I was so sorry for her because I was so mean, rude, selfish, and unbelievable that I did not have a abit of thought about how she was feeling towards me when I said something bad about her since I am her older sister.

My emotion is always unstable every time when I have my period. I will be very rude and cannot control myself so I just will speak my heart out without even thinking what I am saying would hurt others and my lovely sister who was actually not really guilty in this case . It was me who created the bad situation now, my feeling, my emotion because I could not control it well. I would try to tame my emotion. I have to.

To adapt with others we have to restrain ourselves that is what I think. Though I love Sherlock Holmes so much and Sherlock BBC (he is sociopathic), I am no him. Although Sherlock cannot make friend easy but he always has John and he values John most in his Life as best friend. What I am trying to say is that he is able to maintain his relationship well in his own way. That's wonderful, I think.

I have to value people around me not because it will please them but it also reciprocates. The feeling, the emotion of happiness in sharing will also bring joyful in life. That’s why I am not gonna lost with my emotion again. Because there are so much happiness out there if can put aside the bad emotion like shy (why I have to be shy if I don’t commit wrong doing, it is such a foolish notion) and the anger. But, yes talking about emotion and feeling there are so many forms of them. I  am no expert.  I am just jotting down everything that cross my mind now.

I am really really sorry my little sister.